Abyss

I feel like drowning.
Every time I'm coming to a shore ...
and swimming by running on the hair of the water
while the stars shining on the calm sea,
and the moon dancing with flat waves ...
A storm brings me back wide ...
far away ...
and I fall deep,
and I fall ...
in deep ...

Again.

All dark, empty, I'm cold ...
"Is not there a way out?"
"can anyone hear me?"
"can someone help me?"
Here I feel lost,
I swim with all my strength
to reach the surface
but it still seems so far away ...

Every time I try to resurface
and to go home ...
and embrace the moon,
and come to my place, find it.
I do not know what the road is,
Coming ...
and I fall deep
and I fall ...
again.

* is an abyss inside my head.
I swallow more water than blood and inside me there is only dark sea *