despair

... it's a lot that I don't write,
I'm broken, rotten, fucked up...
 looking for my direction.
again and again.
I've been circling for years,
come to an endless maze
that always leads at the begin.
Someone will took my hand,
to take me on the brightest stars
 on this sultry night?
! for run away of this...
to escape from this roots that rope me.
I no longer feel my heart beat.
 if I'm dead or alive,
it doesn't matter anymore.
in this world around me I only see pawns.
Crazy puppeteers who pull wires
in this masquerade of lying mockery.
and what role do I have in this strange universe ?! *x3
I waste energy and continuing to walk around,
in this desperation loop.
If there is no sense why everyone keeps looking for it ?! *x3
I would like to throw myself into chaos.
Run away from these iron walls.
Climb the branches to get out of this maze,
But it's all in my head.