electric shock

 I let the darkness fall

I don't turn on the light today

Now the clock of time

She is moving forward while I am staying behind.

I want some silence

I want some fun.

Dull feelings perhaps never existed

I was born in the dark.

Non-existent emotions

- Flat line on the electrocardiogram -

But I look for them at any cost.

Then I make a mess

Then I get stressed or I don't live.

I had a dream last night

If five plus five is ten

And five to ten is five

Because I have this addiction

From feeling strong and deep emotions?

* Sometimes I think I'm dead

And only with an electric shock can I live on *